Looking back at everything, I realize that there are a lot of things in my life that I never expected to happen. Some are for the better and I am blessed to have the changes. But I'd be lying if I said that I don't have any "what ifs". I want to accept everything that's happened, and understand that it is all a part of a greater plan. It is really hard to get over the disappointment of not getting my way. Its a little scary to think that maybe what I've been wanting all of my life isn't what's meant for me. I am almost afraid to wish for anything.