It is official, I am a teacher now. The CCTC granted my credential and it is in my hand as I speak. Woo Hoo! And it only took two and half years.

my sister is a mommy. she gave birth to the most beautiful baby girl in the world....not that i'm biased or anything. =)

i definitely feel blessed for the new addition to the family. i know that i have been pushing my spirituality off to the back burner, and that my self-induced spiritual rut keeps me from HIM in my life every day. but i'm really lucky to see HIM in her right now. thank you.

i think this school year is the most that i have ever used a planner in my entire life. usually i buy some kind of calendar each new year, and i use it daily for the first week or so. by the end of the year though, only january is filled in, and the rest of the months still look like they have yet to pass.

but look at me now! it's already april, and i'm still filling in my schedule before the actual due dates. for awhile i was even color coding my schedule. although that's starting to get old now. no matter how pretty it looks, i'm getting too lazy to switch colors so the closest writing utensil will just have to suffice! but now thanks to my handy dandy planner, when i miss a deadline, i do so with my full awareness. i can honestly say that it didn't slip my mind. how can it when i've given myself such a bold reminder in bright red? it's almost empowering.

to-do lists have been really big for me too. unfortunately, i'm crossing things of at a rate that i am not too proud off. my sister and my mom are putting me to shame. even after working a full 8 hour shift, my mom can still cross off hip hop abs at the end of the day. i've been off track from my school site for almost 3 weeks and i can count on one hand how many times i went to the gym. ate just recently went on her maternity leave and she's already finished setting up her nursery. i moved back home 3 years ago, and i still haven't finished unpacking.

a part of me still can't believe that my sister is almost due. it is still a trip every time i realize that there's a little person in her belly as i speak. she asked me to be in the room with her for the delivery. and even though babies and child birth freak me out a bit, i'll be there to take pictures, bring her ice chips, keep unwanted visitors at bay, and hold down a leather strap for her to bite on if need be just because. that's how we roll. i'm still a little nervous still though. i've been tivo-ing a baby story to kinda prepare me for it so that i'm not that much of a useless ass when i'm in there. and it's on my to do list to actually watch it, but it has yet to be crossed off. it's hard when i have so behind with rock of love 2, dancing with the stars, and america's best dance crew. need to do it soon though. this due date is almost here, and it not one that i plan to miss.

i miss God. and i know He misses me too.

bouts of insomnia once again. its been awhile i must say. i've read of artists who have tapped into their creative genius during the wee small hours of the morning, but i doubt any artistic expression will come from this restlessness. the closest thing to it will be changing the template of this out of date blog.

man, my body's gonna pay for not sleeping in 3 hours when i actually have to be up. the harder i try to be on schedule, the harder it is to fall asleep.

i stopped by my old work today to visit my coworkers. one of my former students jumped of the swing and ran towards me to give me a hug. it makes my day to realize, that even though he may never learn to say a word, he can still build relationships. it means so much to know that in some small way i have touched his life, especially since he's made a lasting impact on mine.

i haven't been on a plane in almost 10 years, but this wednesday i am flying baby! i'm really excited, the stomach in knots-gonna crap in my pants-but in a good way-kind of excited. still not packed, because i haven't done laundry in weeks and i have no clothes to pack, but no worries it shall be done.

it's really nice to get away from everything right now. i've been busting my butt at work, and i think i need a break.